Defying Gravi - *chokegaspcough*

God, I can't breathe out of my nose. I try to kind of sing along with Idina during 'Defying Gravity' and end up suffocating.

I wish I could sing. Even when I'm not sick or anything I can't. But I want to. I want to sing and act and be on stage. I want to moo, or defy gravity or ugh ANYTHING, but I never will because my voice sucks. It's not like I could even get anywhere, I've thoroughly convinced myself that I don't have the looks to be an actress.

But damnit that's what I wanna do...I wanna be on stage. The thrill, the people, ahh I love it so much. But I don't think I could just be happy doing plays...I would want musicals. And as I said...I can't sing. I go flat way too easily...I get the notes, and at first to me it'll sound right, then they're half a step off. And ahh I can't go anywhere, and most of my notes come from my head. I can sing from my chest occasionally, if there's no one around and I can blast the volume of my music and just put as much into it as I can. Then it's still hard. But, really, compared to everyone I know (especially people like Cassie, who sings from her head but damnit she's good at it) I can't sing. And like I've whined previously in the post, that's what I wanna do, I want to act and sing in the same two hour performance.

*sigh*

Where'd this post come from? No idea. But meh I felt like ranting. *Shrug*

-Maddy

*Hums*

I'm waiting for the Wicked footware to finish downloading (almost down to 5 hours! WOOT!), so in my fit of complete, 'don't-open-any-internet-windows' boredom, I wrote some of A'mael. About 1000 words of Drake and Morca discussing the plan to get Trish there. It's not very good, and it's not long enough to cut up and place between Daken and Amit scenes, but I guess I'll do that later.

Morca calls Hawk both 'birdman' and 'Falcon.' (It's all Glinda style...'And [Dorthy's] cute little dog....DoDo.') That makes me rather happy. As does her referring to Drake as her 'boy toy, guard dog and teddy bear' all in the same thought. I had to just kinda bs my way through the plans, because I can't remember them, all I was sure of was Drake telling Morca to be in the room with Trish so that when she wakes up she won't go crazy and blow the house up.

Though later Morca says...."Baby, this plan sucks. It's never going to work." And then, ta da, Amit and Daken show up with with a rather unconsious Trish. And the only thing Morca can say is "Well, I STILL think she's going to kill you when she wakes up."

For some reason, it amuses me.

I'm off to fall asleep to something on TV, I might just post around 4 or 5 AM screaming about my finished Wicked boot, I set the alarm to wake me up around the time it should finish. Yay!

-Maddy