*Small smile*
Jan. 29th, 2005 07:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
perididdleI'm feeling better today. Well, emotional wise. I lazed around and did nothing with well mostly the parents either in town or working, so I was able to be alone. *Shrug*
And, hey, it's not like I didn't know it was going on. I've known for a long time. I knew before my dad did (god...he read part of an e-mail on accident...I hate having to hole myself downstairs.) And they've been trying to fix it, and get better. I just wish Mom would drink less. It would help. One of these days I'll talk to her. I'm just kind of afraid. I have nightmares about her...her losing confidence in me, or telling me that she really hates me, or trying to kill me (multiple dreams on that one) and I always feel that any deep conversation will have to be me coming out. But, I don't know. I can't do that yet. I think I'm to the point where I'm just going to write her something and tell her how I feel and just a lotta stuff. I'm fine, though, to Tito and Lisha who I know were kinda worried. *Huggles to all*
In other, more recent, happy news...uh...I have Coke. *Nods*
I also have a 100 degree temperature. And coughing. And watering eyes and evil, evil sinuses. Not of the fun, no. I don't know if I'll be able to go over to Jessi's tomorrow like both she and Tito want me to...I just dunno.
So what do I do to help the flu/cold/whatever...eat Chinese of course. ^_^ House Fried Rice being eaten with like one of those fried noodle things because the chopsticks weren't workin' with me.
VENGENCE WILL BE MIIIINE!
Mulan makes me happy. I shall watch it now and try to get rid of my headache. Maybe write some, or work on an RPG. Or try some photomanips for Ice or Elphaba.
Ohhh, speaking of Elphie, someone on www.nshc-studio.net wrote me this for her.
From the light to the darkness
A place I feel at home
Somewhere I can be me
A place no one knows me, where no one cares what I look like
I'm defying gravity
Sliding into my own paradise
A place I can feel free
I place just for me
They all say I'm evil
Well maybe they're right,
But all I know is
I'm good on the inside
Does it truly matter?
If I don't look the same?
Does it mean I'm bad?
Am I cast aside for only this reason?
I'll speak my mind if you ask me a question.
I'll throw a fit if it isn't my way
You may not know it
I may not show it
But I'm feeling quite…wicked…today
The person I love to my right
My only friend to my left
Maybe I'll be alright
Fiyero's by my side... Glinda helping too...
May I'll be alright.
But I feel wicked…don’t you?
I'm going solo this time
I'm breaking free from the posers and addict lines
I'll follow my own path for eternity.
Yeah I feel wicked
And yeah I'll defy gravity
I like it.
Hmm...this shall be all. *Waves and hugs to all*
-Maddy
And, hey, it's not like I didn't know it was going on. I've known for a long time. I knew before my dad did (god...he read part of an e-mail on accident...I hate having to hole myself downstairs.) And they've been trying to fix it, and get better. I just wish Mom would drink less. It would help. One of these days I'll talk to her. I'm just kind of afraid. I have nightmares about her...her losing confidence in me, or telling me that she really hates me, or trying to kill me (multiple dreams on that one) and I always feel that any deep conversation will have to be me coming out. But, I don't know. I can't do that yet. I think I'm to the point where I'm just going to write her something and tell her how I feel and just a lotta stuff. I'm fine, though, to Tito and Lisha who I know were kinda worried. *Huggles to all*
In other, more recent, happy news...uh...I have Coke. *Nods*
I also have a 100 degree temperature. And coughing. And watering eyes and evil, evil sinuses. Not of the fun, no. I don't know if I'll be able to go over to Jessi's tomorrow like both she and Tito want me to...I just dunno.
So what do I do to help the flu/cold/whatever...eat Chinese of course. ^_^ House Fried Rice being eaten with like one of those fried noodle things because the chopsticks weren't workin' with me.
VENGENCE WILL BE MIIIINE!
Mulan makes me happy. I shall watch it now and try to get rid of my headache. Maybe write some, or work on an RPG. Or try some photomanips for Ice or Elphaba.
Ohhh, speaking of Elphie, someone on www.nshc-studio.net wrote me this for her.
From the light to the darkness
A place I feel at home
Somewhere I can be me
A place no one knows me, where no one cares what I look like
I'm defying gravity
Sliding into my own paradise
A place I can feel free
I place just for me
They all say I'm evil
Well maybe they're right,
But all I know is
I'm good on the inside
Does it truly matter?
If I don't look the same?
Does it mean I'm bad?
Am I cast aside for only this reason?
I'll speak my mind if you ask me a question.
I'll throw a fit if it isn't my way
You may not know it
I may not show it
But I'm feeling quite…wicked…today
The person I love to my right
My only friend to my left
Maybe I'll be alright
Fiyero's by my side... Glinda helping too...
May I'll be alright.
But I feel wicked…don’t you?
I'm going solo this time
I'm breaking free from the posers and addict lines
I'll follow my own path for eternity.
Yeah I feel wicked
And yeah I'll defy gravity
I like it.
Hmm...this shall be all. *Waves and hugs to all*
-Maddy
