*Dances*

[perididdle]

As Lisha's note says, I nabbed this from elsewhere...but it just rocks too hard to not post it.


1. Homosexuality is not natural........ much like eyeglasses, polyester, and viagra are not natural

2. Heterosexual marriages are valid because they produce children....Infertile couples and old people cannot legally get married because the world needs more children.

3. Obviously gay parents will raise gay children....... because straight parents only raise straight children.

4. Straight marriage will be less meaningful...... since Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage was meaningful.

5. Marriage has been around for a long time, and it hasn't and shouldn't be changed at all......since women are property, Blacks can't marry Whites, and divorce is illegal.

6. Gay marriage should be decided by the people, not the courts..... because the MAJORITY-elected legislature, not courts, have historically protected the rights of MINORITIES.

7. Gay marriage is not supported by religion....... In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are always imposed on the entire country. That's why we only have one religion in America.

8. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay..... in the same way that hanging around tall people makes you tall.

9. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior..... People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage license.

10. Children can never succeed without both male and female role models at home........That's why single parents are forbidden to raise children.

11. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society. Heterosexual marriage has been around for a long time, and we could never adapt to new social norms.... because we haven't adapted to cars, longer life spans, or rap music.

12. Civil unions, providing most of the same benefits as marriage with a different name, are better because a "separate but equal" institution is always better and constitutional..... Separate schools for African-Americans worked just as well as separate marriages will for gays & lesbians.

In other news...I'm going to rant some. Yay?

I hate that my parents don't know. I hate that I can't manage to tell them. I hate that I think they'll desert me. I hate that my mom has given me reason to suspect this. I hate that I feel like I'm hiding. I hate that I can't look at bisexual/lesbian/gay/ect communities and sites without having to close the window when someone comes down the stairs. I hate that I feel that I can't trust my friends not to leave me. I hate that I live in such a small closed-minded town that has such a small, closed-minded school. I hate that people so freely scream 'fag' at each other down the hallway. I hate that I know I'd get bullied if people were to find out. I hate that has to be such a big issue, to me and to others. I hate that we can't all just accept each other. I hate that I get those looks when I blatantly express my pro-gay rights feelings. I hate the looks I get from my parents when I talk about an actress. I hate that I'm terrified of part of myself. I hate feeling like maybe it would just make things easier if I hadn't ever thought about it, if I hadn't ever realized it. I hate that I have to hate it. I hate that I had to even write this. I hate that I'm about to cry. I just hate it.

-Madison

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[perididdle.livejournal.com]

Story - It is grand!

Message - I was very shocked to get something like this from someone I don't know really, to tell you the truth, but I just have to say thank you. I love all my friends that are there for me, and random semi-strangers with beautiful peptalks also hold a special place in my head. ^_^ One of these days I may take you up on the offer to talk...sometimes it's nice to just get it all out/talk, and you seem like an awesome cool person. Again, thank you. *Smile*

And...AMBER ROCKS! *Squee* As does BTVS. Wow, I'm amazed at how many Wuffy (Wicked & Buffy) people there are out there!

Thanks and toodles (I'm adding you to my buddy list. ^_^ x insane muse x)

-Maddy

[perididdle.livejournal.com]

*special place in my head

it's supposed to be 'heart'...oy...no more posting at night for me...

[armycheerleader.livejournal.com]

Maddy I'M not going to leave you or go anywhere.

Hate to break it to ya but youre stuck with me, babe.

~bopsiey

[roxychica50.livejournal.com]

Yeah same with me, like Jessi, your stuck with me too. I'll love you forever and always:) I hate our close-minded school too. Oh and I know a lot of 8th graders already know or at least think your bisexual anyway so..., just know that anytime you need to talk about anything, have a buffy or firefly marathon, cuddle, or someone to just be there for you and support you, I'll be here!! I love you so much and I'm here for you always!!!
TITO

[daphyn.livejournal.com]

That list rules. (Sorry I'm commenting so much, I just think you're awesome and you keep saying things I want to comment on!)

I'm sorry you can't tell your parents. I told mine when I was 16. They'd known for a year. My sister had known for 2. I'd only suspected deep down since I was 12, though now I know that there have been signs since I was a toddler. I'm 21 now, and open and proud of it all!

I wish you much luck with all of it. *hugs*

P.S. You need to see the movie Kissing Jessica Stein if you haven't already. Not only is it wonderful, but it has Idina in it (for about a second and a half)!

[perididdle.livejournal.com]

The thing is...I'm sure I could...not that my sister is much with the being straight, and both my parents (our mom and her stepdad) have taken it very well, so I don't think there would be much of an issue. I had a conversation with my mom once when she asked if I thought I was a lesbian, and she looked so scared and sad, like she thought she did somethign wrong or would never have grandkids or something. So it's kind of that, too. But, yeah, I'm just freaked.

At 13 I think I'm afraid the'll try to make me second guess myself...like they'll brush it off as a whole 'she's young and knows nothing' thing. *Shrug* I have odd inner worries lol.

Congrats to you for being out and proud. ^_^

Kissing Jessica Stein...I've heard Idina was in that. Hey, even a second and a half of Dee is better than no Dee at all.

[daphyn.livejournal.com]

(Dude, you talk just like I do. That's weird.)

I'm sorry your mom would be freaked out. That really sucks.

You may be 13, but you seem to me to be the most mature 13 year old I've ever met. And if they can't see what I've seen after talking to you for an hour or so, then they have some serious problems. It's not an odd worry, by the way. It's entirely possible that they'd think that. "Oh, it's just a phase, it's the cool thing to do nowadays" (parents know NOTHING!)

Idina's a bridesmaid in Kissing Jessica Stein :) She has one line: "Are you the lesbian?" But she's in the deleted scenes for a little bit more if you can find the DVD. It's SUCH a good movie anyway. One of my all-time favorites.

[perididdle.livejournal.com]

(Yay for talking just like other people! Heh, I tend to type like I talk...)

I'm always told that I'm mature...maybe I just grew up around a lot of culture and smart people, but I have no idea why people think that *Giggle*. All of my good friends are way older than me, but I guess I rarely even think about my age in any issues until it comes to my parents. They still think I'm such a little girl, I think. Yeah, parents tend to know nothing and see very little. Silly them.

Idina! "Are you the lesbian?" That just made me laugh for some reason...maybe it's because of all the different convos we're having via comments and gmail and they all seem to just smoosh together somehow. ^_^ I'll be sure to search for it at a movie store sometime soon!

[daphyn.livejournal.com]

(I type just like I talk. Hee hee...I'm all amused now.)

I can give you several reasons people think you're mature:
1. You know who you are...most people don't know that at 30, let alone 13.
2. You type NORMALLY! Like a human being, in English. That's unusual in anyone nowadays.
3. You understand very complex issues. I wouldn'tve understood RENT, or Wicked the book, or Firefly...or ANYTHING...well, I was kind of a strange kid. I spent most of my time in my room listening to my Hanson and Spice Girls CDs and making collages, or watching my gymnastics tapes. Ah, well.

Anywho. Yeah, different conversations are fun to carry on at the same time!

KJS will probably make you cry if you're at all given to crying at movies. Just so you know.

[perididdle.livejournal.com]

(Amused is good. *Nod*)

1. I think this is what growing up in a very open minded (when shown against my friend's parents, at least) household does...I was allowed to do a lot of what I wanted, and if I felt I was old enough to understand something, then I could go about my business. Or maybe it's because I like to sit in corners with notebooks and ponder. Who knows. ^_^

2. OH, ENGLISH. *Huggles the English language. The Americanized version, but English nonetheless.* Most netspeak annoys me. I can stand LOL and BRB, even G2G, but much else just grates on my nerves. I mean...just think...how much time does it save, really? Two seconds, probably. Don't even get me started on ne-ways or sum-one. Some number of letters. (I'm also a writer, so I try to stick to the language I know when I'm in everyday conversation.)

3. Oh, I went through that kind of phase. In 2nd, 3rd and 4th grade I was deep, DEEP into the likes of N*SYNC and I would write fanletters and draw and be a rather 'normal' teenybopper kid. But I never necessarily considered RENT, Wicked, Firefly, ect very complex...maybe it's just because I'd been rather free to be myself and write and things like that, but I always liked to look at things and figure them out. I also, for a long time, made friends with people years older than me, and I felt like I had to kind of work to be at their level, so I did. I guess I got stuck there, or something?

Wow. What was this random reply about? I'm analyzing how someone analyzed me. Oy. Sorry bout that, maybe I'm a tad self-centered?

And different convos are indeed quite fun!

Oh, I love crying at movies, books, and musicals. It just makes me feel like I've walked away with something, I think. Or I just like being in a depressed mood occasionally (I've gone on Becoming Part II / Wild At Hear / The Body / The Gift / Hells Bells / Seeing Red / Chosen binges with my Buffy DVDs just so I could spend the day crying. ^_^)

[daphyn.livejournal.com]

(I'm frequently amused. My three emotions are amused, excited, and worried.)

1. That's really cool :) My house was kind of like that too. I was really intelligent (but not smart) when I was little, started talking early and with big words and all that, so my dad was always buying me things that were for kids years older than me in hopes that I'd get into it sooner. He let me read Chaucer when I was like 6...I didn't understand it, but it made me laugh. I don't remember why. I don't write, not really, but I've been keeping journals since I was 8. I still have all of them, too. A lot of the time my thoughts flow more freely through a pen than through a keyboard.

2. I've always been the same way. I used to go into mIrc chatrooms (ah, those were the days) back when it was just lol, and I didn't know what it meant :P I had to ask someone. I was on a bunch of mailing lists, Red Dwarf and Ally McBeal, and everyone thought I was like 18 or 20. I won a copy of a lady's book of poetry (some of which was very adult-themed) and when she found out how old I was she was ashamed, and wished she'd sent me something else.

3. *giggle* I have autographs from SO many gymnasts. I wrote to the Spice Girls once, but never got a reply (not that I expected to). I have 4 autographed pictures from Vanessa Atler, and one from Dominique Dawes too. I was SO good at writing fanletters that made them want to respond to me :) I've apparently lost that touch lately, though.

I grew up hanging out with a few kids my own age, some younger, a bunch older, and my mom's coffee friends. I'd go out to coffee with them late at night and discuss things with them. They found me fascinating...I guess...or something. But I've always had trouble relating to people my own age. I'm really really good with little kids (I mean REALLY little...I lose rapport with kids once they turn 4) and adults, although lately I'm nervous around adults.

Not self-centered! It's actually normal to analyze someone's analyzation of you. (Is analyzation a word?) Plus, I'm gonna be a psychologist :)

Oh my gosh, that Buffy crying binge is insane. I'd never stop crying! I cry at movies in the theater (I cried at the end of Racing Stripes, but shh! Don't tell anyone) whenever something really happy happens, whenever something really sad happens, whenever something makes me mad... I cry at books sometimes, but only once in a while. I'm usually busy concentrating on being able to see the words.

Have you watched Wild at Heart with the commentary? It's one of the funniest things I've ever heard. Putting Marti Noxon, Joss Whedon, and Seth Green in a room together is just genius.

[perididdle.livejournal.com]

1. I'm oddly really bad at keeping journals. This LJ is the only kind of 'journal' thing I've ever been able to keep...and lately I haven't been able to write much story-wise at all, but I've never been able to write very well with pen and paper.

2. I didn't know what lol or brb was until I asked someone, either. And I've gone through the 'I thought you were older...' thing, too...a few times in a Firefly chat room, people sent me links to some stories that they thought I might like (I think we were on the discussion of slash, and I mentioned that I had no problem as long as it made sense). Some of the stories were quite out of my 'rating level' and I think it frightened some of those that sent them to me. ^_^ I've gotten really good at knowing what parts to skip and when the actual story picks up. It's something you have to do A LOT in Firefly, Buffy (especially Spuffy) and Wicked...all the good stories seem to be the adult ones...

3. I never got autographs from my obsessions. Though, once a friend and I wrote a horrible song, recorded it on cassette on a school bus, and sent it in with a letter to N*SYNC. Oh, how I cringe at the thought. I think that's why I don't write fan letters now...that, and I think I'd rather get an autograph because I met the person. Which makes it kind of tough once you think about it, but I often spend nights staring at my Wicked playbill because it's cool to know that you SAW them sign it. Fwee.

Even when I was little (-ish...2nd-4th) I hung out with kids years a few grades older than me. And once I stopped talking to THEM, I began talking to people even older...anywhere from 4-6 years. I feel more at ease with them, like they won't judge me as much as those my age will. I've found that my fellow 13-year-olds in general aren't very open minded. Bleh.

Psychology! Yay! That's always fun. Sadly, now when I hear that word, I think Buffy season 4. Just don't try to build a man out of monster parts, okay?

Buffy Cringe Binge...I like it! I rarely do it, but sometimes I feel the need to just CRY. Sometimes it cheers me up (I'm an odd child.) And I love crying at movies, too...usually when something sad happens, but really it only takes a little bit of good music and a small 'good' thing to happen for me to break down. I.E. the moment in 'Chosen' when Buffy tells off The First and struggles to her feet...the music and the motions send me into happy!tears every time. It was the same with watching the end of Defying Gravity. I'm very easily overwhelmed. And with books...I cry less at them than I do with movies/musicals/ect, but A Walk To Remember and Bridge To Tarabithia are insanely upsetting. Which is why I've read them twice.

THE COMMENTARY! That is probably one of my favorite commentaries, the Marti/Joss/Seth one. I've watched that episode many, many times, but only twice without the commentary. It's hilarious. "We destroyed Tokeyo...doesn't that MEAN ANYTHING?!" and "TTFN." "Oh, that's pure evil." "*Pause* What's TTFN?"

Another one of my favorite commentaries is the one for 'Conversations With Dead People' in season 7, and anything with Joss. I love Joss. Oh, most of the commentaries on the Firefly DVD's are wonderful, too...Serenity, Shindig, War Stories, The Message and Objects in Space are the greatest.

-Maddy

[eighthcloud.livejournal.com]

Hi, I'm Dana ([Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com]'s friend) and she's talking about you as of late, so I thought I'd pop by and say hi. You seem really really cool so I'm gonna add you. K?

[perididdle.livejournal.com]

Bwahaha, yay people! You seem fun, too!

*Scurries off to add you back* (I like new people, obviously)

[daphyn.livejournal.com]

1. I type almost as fast as I think, so it should theoretically be easier for me to type than write. I really don't know why it's not. I wish I could write fiction, I really do. My creativity is in other areas. I can make really nice collages...like with magazines and stuff. I should show you the picture of one I made out of two months worth of Entertainment Weeklys and a few comics I got from the paper in NYC. OH! I did write one story that's pretty good, I think. There's a link to it in an entry I made a few days ago.

2. I've never been able to get into reading fanfic...I read the stuff my friend Heidi (duckytears) writes, but that's different. And I did actually really enjoy one she wrote called "The Wolfram & Hart Annual Orgy", it's the funniest thing I've ever read. I need to find the link to that for you too. It doesn't have any more sex in it than you'd see in an episode, it's just funny in general. But other than that, it's (fanfic) just not something I've ever been particularly interested in, for some reason. I don't know why.

3. I wish I had autographs from meeting them :/ The only non-gymnast autographs I have are Calista Flockhart (I was OBSESSED with Ally McBeal) and Jane Krakowski (again with the Ally McBeal...). I have two from Calista, one smaller one and one 5x7 :) She addressed the envelope for the second one herself. She has really pretty handwriting. Well, and I have my autographed copy of Idina's CD, but that was a Christmas present. I REALLY want autographs from people from actually meeting everyone, but the only famous person I've ever met is the former governor of Washington. He stepped on my sister's foot.

Most of my friends are either a few years younger than me or a year or so older than me, but yeah...when I was a kid I could wrap adults around my little finger, so I hung out with them a lot. I'm an attention-whore. I'm really good at being in the background when I want to be (which is a lot of the time...I'm considered "the quiet one" at work) but if I'm talking, people are gonna LISTEN, dammit. And people my own age never listen to me. I agree that most 13-year-olds aren't particularly open-minded.

Yes, psychology...I promise not to pull a Walsh ;) I'm going to get my doctorate in child psychology, specializing in play therapy. I understand how little kids (mostly toddler's) minds work. It's so cool. My mom says I've been empathic since I was a baby. (that part's annoying, but we'll go into that later.) Anywho. Yay psychology and analyzing people :)

Crying cheers me up sometimes too. There are times when I just NEED to. I watched Patch Adams (I'd never seen it before) for the sole reason that I knew it'd make me cry my eyes out, and it did, and I felt SO much better. I can't cry at life, at things that happen to me. The only release I get for that is when I cry at TV and movies. I haven't read Bridge to Terebithia OR What Dreams May Come yet, but I need to! Dana's recommended Bridge to Terebithia to me like six times, but I haven't gotten around to it yet.

I didn't know at first that there was a commentary for Wild At Heart! Then I was going through ALL the special features, and found it, and I haven't watched it since without it. I couldn't handle the episode before the commentary, but now watching it without it I remember things they said in the commentary and it makes me laugh :) I adore them all!!

I haven't watched any of the commentaries in season 7 yet. I haven't even watched all the episodes in season 7 since I got the DVDs...I really oughta get around to that! I LOVE the Objects in Space commentary. It's my favorite episode of Firefly, 'cause River is my favorite character. I was hoping against hope that the commentary would be with Summer Glau, and was upset that it wasn't, until I heard Joss's commentary on it. I love that man, I really do.