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I can't believe how happy I am that spring break is here...finally...ugh.
I guess I'm completely drained...the past week and a half, going to school is just rawr. It was so hard to keep myself going through the whole day. I kept wanting to just forget about it and shut down and not have to deal with the lessons or the people or the teachers. This morning it was all I could not to throw objects across the room and beat the crap out of a door...I didn't want to do anything...the fact that it took me an hour to put my hair in a damn ponytail didn't help. I got my dad to drive me to school and I got to curl up on the couch for ten minutes and watch Imus in the Morning, which just makes me laugh. Still didn't want to go, but I wasn't on the verge of tears for a bit. Then I wandered around the house, and finally asked dad to put Skimbleshanks on the sound system before we left. God, I don't know what I would do without my musicals...I couldn't help but just grin and sing along. And then I could manage my way out the door.
Honestly, Broadway has done so much for me...it's such an easy escape. If I'm feeling like shit, or I just need to get away from whatever is going on, I go for my musicals. As long as it's not Wonderful Town (yeah...basically Maddy is to Wonderful Town as Nicole is to Wicked), I'll be very up to blasting any musical that comes my way. I listened to Wicked on the bus, and I got home and wanted to just have half an hour to go at the punching bag. But it wasn't hanging, so I grabbed some soda and comfy clothes, put Cats on the TV, and stretched for 20 minutes. I feel SO MUCH better than I did when I got home. I don't feel like smashing things or clawing at my arms anymore...and hell, I just can't help but smile at Mungojerrie & Rumpleteazer and Rum Tum Tugger and tap dancing beetles and Jellicle Songs for Jellicle Cats...and Misto and Victoria doing their fun spotlight thing. I tried to do shoulder stands like Victoria does....it hurt...but but I can almost do something resembling one. Yay. *huggles Cats*
And now I have like every David Anders picture....EVER. So, that's just happy. And I might not have to go hang fence wire tomorrow. Oh god, I don't want to do that...tomorrow I want to SLEEP. All day. And watch, like, Buffy and Firefly and Cats. *Nod*
And now I have the absolute CUTEST MOMENT EVER in Cats...Rumbleteazer as the Peke...oh god, I can't help but giggle madly.
BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK! *I'm a Pollicle! Unless I get Rum Tum and Misto and Skimble by being one of the Scottish puppies...*
Huffery snuffery heathen chinese. Yay.
And Rum Tum playing the bagpipes...I swear. I'm going to melt. It's like...AHH, HOT. God, who needs Growltiger and Billy Macaw when you can have The Awful Battle of the Pekes and the Pollicles? Hmmmm?
I'm off to make rpg pictures. Yayfun.
-Maddsies
I can't believe how happy I am that spring break is here...finally...ugh.
I guess I'm completely drained...the past week and a half, going to school is just rawr. It was so hard to keep myself going through the whole day. I kept wanting to just forget about it and shut down and not have to deal with the lessons or the people or the teachers. This morning it was all I could not to throw objects across the room and beat the crap out of a door...I didn't want to do anything...the fact that it took me an hour to put my hair in a damn ponytail didn't help. I got my dad to drive me to school and I got to curl up on the couch for ten minutes and watch Imus in the Morning, which just makes me laugh. Still didn't want to go, but I wasn't on the verge of tears for a bit. Then I wandered around the house, and finally asked dad to put Skimbleshanks on the sound system before we left. God, I don't know what I would do without my musicals...I couldn't help but just grin and sing along. And then I could manage my way out the door.
Honestly, Broadway has done so much for me...it's such an easy escape. If I'm feeling like shit, or I just need to get away from whatever is going on, I go for my musicals. As long as it's not Wonderful Town (yeah...basically Maddy is to Wonderful Town as Nicole is to Wicked), I'll be very up to blasting any musical that comes my way. I listened to Wicked on the bus, and I got home and wanted to just have half an hour to go at the punching bag. But it wasn't hanging, so I grabbed some soda and comfy clothes, put Cats on the TV, and stretched for 20 minutes. I feel SO MUCH better than I did when I got home. I don't feel like smashing things or clawing at my arms anymore...and hell, I just can't help but smile at Mungojerrie & Rumpleteazer and Rum Tum Tugger and tap dancing beetles and Jellicle Songs for Jellicle Cats...and Misto and Victoria doing their fun spotlight thing. I tried to do shoulder stands like Victoria does....it hurt...but but I can almost do something resembling one. Yay. *huggles Cats*
And now I have like every David Anders picture....EVER. So, that's just happy. And I might not have to go hang fence wire tomorrow. Oh god, I don't want to do that...tomorrow I want to SLEEP. All day. And watch, like, Buffy and Firefly and Cats. *Nod*
And now I have the absolute CUTEST MOMENT EVER in Cats...Rumbleteazer as the Peke...oh god, I can't help but giggle madly.
BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK! *I'm a Pollicle! Unless I get Rum Tum and Misto and Skimble by being one of the Scottish puppies...*
Huffery snuffery heathen chinese. Yay.
And Rum Tum playing the bagpipes...I swear. I'm going to melt. It's like...AHH, HOT. God, who needs Growltiger and Billy Macaw when you can have The Awful Battle of the Pekes and the Pollicles? Hmmmm?
I'm off to make rpg pictures. Yayfun.
-Maddsies