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I'm on a bi kick right now. 0.o Not entirely sure why, though I just spent about two hours reading posts on NaNo dealing with homosexuality, this is while watching Ellen Degeneres, listening to Anthony Rapp (in the RENT context, even) and poking around the 'bisexualteens' community. MAYBE that's the reason...maaaaybe.

I wanna come out to a lot of people. I want them to be able to know it's who I am and just I have this feeling that no one will accept it. I know that there are a few that might, but I just...I'm scared. Terrified. Telling Jessie made me nearly collapse, and I remember writing the note to my bopsiey and barely being able to keep my hand from shaking, and then spazzing when the phone rang that night. The two people I was SURE would understand/be fine with it, and I was scared. (Though was never scared of telling teh Lisha. I think that was a gradual process combined with ignorant rants on my behalf and her saying right off the bat as soon as I started thinking about it....'You know I won't think of you any differently, right?')

*Sigh* Jessie's hot.

This is as angsty and random as I can get. This is sad.

Can I angst about the post being sad *wonders*

-Maddy