I'm so incredibly tired, I just want to curl up on my bed and sleep for a week...
I don't want to go to this show, and I know everyone is sick of hearing my whining about this, but just UGH. I don't want to show my entire life, I didn't even want to show in the first place, it just all kind of happened. I'm stressing, my stomach hurts, and I have a constant headache. I don't want to do showmanship, I just don't want to make myself stressed over this whole thing for an entire weekend, I CAN'T TAKE THAT ANYMORE. As if a four day show wasn't enough, I have 30 kids in each class and I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS. I can't turn back now, we spent $100 entering this damn thing but just grr. And I'm scared to tell Mona that I wan't to quit next year, because I know she'll get mad and all disappointed and dad says that if it comes down to it we'll have to change trainers, and I don't want to, really. I just...*hits her head on the desk*
On top of that, I'm getting sick of Nano, I have the intense urge to stop. I can't do this much longer...
Nightmares aboout all my friends deserting me because I came out didn't help, along with just a sucky kind of day.
I just want to...I don't know what I want to do. I really want to just sleep and not get up and die...
*sigh*
-Maddy
I don't want to go to this show, and I know everyone is sick of hearing my whining about this, but just UGH. I don't want to show my entire life, I didn't even want to show in the first place, it just all kind of happened. I'm stressing, my stomach hurts, and I have a constant headache. I don't want to do showmanship, I just don't want to make myself stressed over this whole thing for an entire weekend, I CAN'T TAKE THAT ANYMORE. As if a four day show wasn't enough, I have 30 kids in each class and I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS. I can't turn back now, we spent $100 entering this damn thing but just grr. And I'm scared to tell Mona that I wan't to quit next year, because I know she'll get mad and all disappointed and dad says that if it comes down to it we'll have to change trainers, and I don't want to, really. I just...*hits her head on the desk*
On top of that, I'm getting sick of Nano, I have the intense urge to stop. I can't do this much longer...
Nightmares aboout all my friends deserting me because I came out didn't help, along with just a sucky kind of day.
I just want to...I don't know what I want to do. I really want to just sleep and not get up and die...
*sigh*
-Maddy
